I've been thinking about life lately. It passes before we can get a full grasp of it. It's here and we're so busy living (or choosing not to live) that it really is gone in a wink. Looking through old writings today, I realized that I have numerous unfinished works that are really good. I should get them together and make something of them. As I searched through old notebooks and scraps of little papers that I had saved, I could remember exactly when some of them were created. It was almost like they froze that moment of my life. Many of them went back to (what I could not believe, even as I stared at the date) more than ten years ago. I started looking back to that time of my life and I couldn't believe how much time had past. Where have the years gone?
One thing that is for sure, since I graduated high school, the years have passed all too quickly. And since I got married in 2007, they've gone by so fast that they have all ran together. That must mean that I'm enjoying my life. It's true. I am. And why shouldn't I?
I'm living my dream...to write books. It's not exactly how I envisioned it, but that doesn't matter. What does matter is that I'm finding a way to make it happen. Now, no one can do things alone in this world, that is for sure. I have been blessed with a husband who is constantly pushing me to succeed, a daughter who is a muse like no other, and family and friends who are always there to support and love me no matter what else is going on in their lives.
Even those who lived before me, and who I miss dearly, are still guiding me in some way from wherever it is that they vanish to when they leave us. I know this because sometimes I can still feel them, leading me forward, guiding my heart to what is right.
So, I just want to ask, what is it that I can do for the world? I have some large shoes to fill if I am to ever be as great as my mother, father, and grandparents before me. They may have seemed to live small lives, but their love made them great people. I only hope that I can be as great as they are. To make the sacrifices that they have made, to overcome the things that they overcame. Until I can be as great as they are, being just another writer seems a small feat indeed! Tonight, as I write this, I am thankful that I came from this lineage, and that my ancestors are still with me, guiding me.
I am thankful. Truly thankful for my many blessings!